♥ My sad news! ♥

Hi Everyone! I'm sorry I am late with posting my $50 Visa Giveaway Winner! I had a minor setback the last couple of days. I wasn't going to share this on here but decided I am amongst friends. On Labor Day weekend, I wasn't feeling myself. Well, after having 2 kids, I know the signs. So I took a pregnancy test. And it was Positive! My husband and I were thrilled as we always wanted to have 3 children but we figured since we are getting older, it just wasn't going to happen. And we were ok with that, until we took the test. We felt complete as a family now. Well, God had other plans for us.

My first ultrasound was 2 weeks later and there on the screen I saw it! My heart sank! I looked over at my husband and his face was blank. There was the gestational sack but no little baby inside of it. They said maybe it's too early yet. So we waited a week, went back for another ultrasound, and still no baby. By this time, I was 9 weeks pregnant and there would definitely be a fetus and a heartbeat. We were devastated.  

My Doctor said I could wait and try and miscarry naturally or have a Suction D&C. I decided to wait a week and see what happens. Nothing! So this past Monday morning I had to go in the hospital for the Suction D&C. I felt fine for the entire week until Friday. I had the worst cramps (I can handle pain) but these were pretty bad. I started bleeding and had the worst pain in my head I ever felt. But after calling the Doctor yesterday and going on medication, I am feeling better physically. Emotionally is another story.

Even though I accepted God's plan for us, for some strange reason, having the doctor remove the "pregnancy" from my body, which obviously wanted to be pregnant, as opposed to it going naturally, has hit me hard the past couple of days. Maybe my body's hormones are completely "out of whack". Or maybe because I am 41 years old and know I probably won't get pregnant again?  Whatever, the reason, it has been a hard couple of days. Thank God for the 2 beautiful and healthy children we do have! They are everything! They are the reason I still smile even though I am sad on the inside. They are amazing little boys!

But I am getting better. Today seems to be bringing on a change. Maybe because the sun is finally shining today! Whatever the reason, I am strong and will get through this. We will get through this.

So please bear with me 1 more day. And I promise I will post my winner sometime tomorrow. Thank you to everyone who has known about this and given me so much support!! You all know who you are! ;) And to all of the rest of my "Bloggin' Friends", you are all the best! You all are the reason, why I do these giveaways!

Have a sweet day!

hugs and much love...