Sunday, October 13, 2013

♥ My sad news! ♥

Hi Everyone! I'm sorry I am late with posting my $50 Visa Giveaway Winner! I had a minor setback the last couple of days. I wasn't going to share this on here but decided I am amongst friends. On Labor Day weekend, I wasn't feeling myself. Well, after having 2 kids, I know the signs. So I took a pregnancy test. And it was Positive! My husband and I were thrilled as we always wanted to have 3 children but we figured since we are getting older, it just wasn't going to happen. And we were ok with that, until we took the test. We felt complete as a family now. Well, God had other plans for us.

My first ultrasound was 2 weeks later and there on the screen I saw it! My heart sank! I looked over at my husband and his face was blank. There was the gestational sack but no little baby inside of it. They said maybe it's too early yet. So we waited a week, went back for another ultrasound, and still no baby. By this time, I was 9 weeks pregnant and there would definitely be a fetus and a heartbeat. We were devastated.  

My Doctor said I could wait and try and miscarry naturally or have a Suction D&C. I decided to wait a week and see what happens. Nothing! So this past Monday morning I had to go in the hospital for the Suction D&C. I felt fine for the entire week until Friday. I had the worst cramps (I can handle pain) but these were pretty bad. I started bleeding and had the worst pain in my head I ever felt. But after calling the Doctor yesterday and going on medication, I am feeling better physically. Emotionally is another story.

Even though I accepted God's plan for us, for some strange reason, having the doctor remove the "pregnancy" from my body, which obviously wanted to be pregnant, as opposed to it going naturally, has hit me hard the past couple of days. Maybe my body's hormones are completely "out of whack". Or maybe because I am 41 years old and know I probably won't get pregnant again?  Whatever, the reason, it has been a hard couple of days. Thank God for the 2 beautiful and healthy children we do have! They are everything! They are the reason I still smile even though I am sad on the inside. They are amazing little boys!

But I am getting better. Today seems to be bringing on a change. Maybe because the sun is finally shining today! Whatever the reason, I am strong and will get through this. We will get through this.

So please bear with me 1 more day. And I promise I will post my winner sometime tomorrow. Thank you to everyone who has known about this and given me so much support!! You all know who you are! ;) And to all of the rest of my "Bloggin' Friends", you are all the best! You all are the reason, why I do these giveaways!

Have a sweet day!

hugs and much love...
           

73 comments:

BillieBee (billiemick) said...

I'm so sorry for your sad news. Prayers from Texas.

Lisa Carroll said...

Melissa, I am so very sorry for your loss. I can sympathize with your physical, as well as emotional pain all too well. You have my love and prayers. Wish I could wrap my arms around you and give you a great big hug! :) Will keep you and your family n my thoughts. xxoo

Rea said...

I am sending my deepest condolences to you and your husband. My husband and I have 3 babies in heaven with the Lord. I know what your going through. I will say a prayer for you. Sending a big hug, Rea

Kelly Massman said...

so sorry to hear this sad news, my friend! hugs and prayers,

hellerlittle said...

I am sad about the bad news(messages) as you already write, everything lies in God's hand. It was a destiny(fate) and he wanted it in such a way. In my thought I am with you, God did not leave a child also me, today I´m to be had gladly a healthy and pubescent daughter. I wish you and your hubby for the future a lot of strength - * I am sure together you create
Embrace virtually with a big powerhouse
hellerlittle

Carol Z said...

So sorry to hear this sad news. Hugs and prayers are with you and your family. Take good care of yourself.

Colleen said...

Big hugs to you. God will give you the strength to make it through this trial. I am just so sorry and I understand the heartache.

Naomi said...

Many hugs during this time of trials...may your heart lighten with each day. We never know what is in store for us and what out Lord's ultimate plan is for each of us...believe we will be better people for going through it! Blessings to your family!

Jessrose21 said...

I'm so sorry for your loss! I can't imagine how difficult that must have been for you and your family. God bless you!

daisydilly (vicki) said...

Sending a hug and a prayer ♥

SiskiyouSue said...

Prayers are with you.

Bonnie said...

Oh, Melissa, I'm so sorry! God be with you and bring you peace.

Darlene (SCS:akronstamperdpk) said...

Oh my dear, sweet friend! I am so sorry for your loss and glad that you are starting to feel a little better. Please know I'm praying for you and your family.
HUGS from OHIO!

Theresa said...

I am SO sorry and will pray for you and your Husband! I have had friends that this happened to and it just breaks your heart! My Daughter miscarried after two children and before two more! I am thankful for ALL of my grandchildren but the one that didn't make it BROKE all of our hearts! I am sending you big hugs and continued prayers! Don't worry about the giveaway:) HUGS!

Michele T said...

I am so, so, sorry... Sending hugs to you all!

Glennis said...

So sorry to hear your sad news

2amscrapper said...

Dear Melissa, you're in my thoughts and prayers.

ParkNSlide said...

Sending love and light your way. Take care.

Claire Spielman said...

So sorry, wishing you only happy times with your beautiful family.

Judy1223 said...

Melissa, my thoughts and prayers are with you.

Shylaa Shree said...

feel very sorry for you melissa, i too understand your pain, time will heal everything, pls take care

riliska said...

I'm so sorry for your sad news.

zub momi said...

So sorry for your sad news. My prayers for you.

Brenda Brown said...

Hi Melissa, I still pop in and look at what you do and apologise for not leaving comments but today is different. I am sorry to hear about your news and know how hard this will have hit you, but take strength and courage from your family and friends and as they say time will heal. Thinking of you.
hugs {brenda} x0x

ike said...

Sorry to hear your sad news :-( Big hugs to you both xxxxxxxxxxxx

Ardilla said...

So sorry to hear this news... May the Lord comfort your heart and feel it with joy coming from Him.
Don´t loose hope, God can give you another child.
Send you a huge hug,
Ardilla :)

Holly AKA KopyKat said...

My heart goes out to you, I know how hard this can be. Lots of cyber hugs and thoughts are with you and your hubby.

cebelica said...

Awww, I'm SO sorry to hear this! :( Sending big hugs your way! xx

Myrto said...

Melissa I am so sorry to hear this. I 've been through a similar situation and I know how much it hurts. Be brave and count your blessings! Hugz

Paper Sewn Visions said...

So sorry to hear your sad news. My prayers go out to you and your family.

Kiranmayee K said...

So sorry to hear this :( Sending you prayers and lots of hugs..

Стокли said...

I'm sorry to hear it, Melissa.
But it will get better and you have your family to help you to get through this.

Kelly Lloyd said...

Oh Melissa I'm so sorry to read of your sad news, sending you big hugs xxx

Linda Peterson said...

What a disappointment! I am so sorry. Love and hugs to you and your family!

Karen Conner said...

I'm so sorry! I'm praying for you!
HUGS!

lisa808 said...

So sorry.

Miriam Prantner said...

So sorry! Miscarriages are so hard because it often feels like you are grieving alone, and you'll have times in the future, those kind of milestones, like 3 mos, 6 mos, due date, where the grief is fresh again, but know you are not alone.

Crea S said...

Wow Melissa, I didn't know about al of that.
But it's nice to read you have two little boys that still can make you smile! I'm wishing you all the best for the future and giving you a big digital hug! Take care!
Hugs,
http://littlecreass.blogspot.be/

Penny said...

So very sorry to hear your news. Praying for healing both emotionally and physically. God bless you.

Penny said...

So very sorry to hear your news. Praying for healing both emotionally and physically. God bless you.

Michele's Treasures, Teacups, and Tumbling Rose Cottage said...

So sorry! DO take care of yourself. Thank you for sharing this with us.
hugs, Michele

CathyinMN said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I pray you will recover quickly physically and emotionally. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

susjc said...

Hi, Melissa. I'm sure this has a very hard time for you and your family. I pray that God will comfort your hearts and surround you with His everlasting love. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Nicole said...

I'm so sorry that you are going through this kind of heartache and physical pain right now. May God bless you and surround you with his love and comfort!!

Lisa T said...

{hugs} to you. You have been through a roller coaster emotionally and then the hormonal roller coaster on top of it. Be kind to yourself.

Cheri Wenger said...

Melissa,

Know that I am praying for you and your family. I am so sorry to hear of the experience that you are going through. You are right to turn to God. He brings us through very difficult times in our lives to bring us to greater clarity in other areas. Keep your faith strong. If it is His will for you to have that third child, it will happen for nothing is impossible with God. Know that you are surrounded by many friends who are praying that your pain be lessened. You have a friend, here, with ears to listen and e-hugs to give! HUGGGGSSSS! - Cheri

Pam said...

My heart aches for you, Melissa. I am so sorry , but He has His plans and this wasn't meant to be. Cherish your boys.

Janber said...

Oh Melissa...I am so very sorry for your loss!! Hugs and prayers to you and your family!!

Iris said...

So sorry - hugs to you and your family.

Jane Stirling said...

So sorry - God Bless You and your family x

Helene E said...

so sorry to hear that, sending hugs to you and your family

Jennifer said...

Dear Melissa, I so understand your pain. keep trusting in the Lord Jesus, he knows best. Sending love and hugs to you and your family!

Cazzy said...

Such an awful experience for you both, especially you Melissa. Get well again soon, maybe a baby will come along later.

Cazzy x

JoAnn said...

So sorry to hear of your loss. Glad you are doing some better. Sending hugs and prayers.

scrapn said...

#1, I am very sorry for your loss.
BUT, don't give up Melissa!
I am here to tell you I had my (only) child at the age of 44!!
She is perfect in EVERY way & will be 16 this year.

As I said, I am very sorry for your loss. It is so devastating.
But, you can still get pregnant again & have a healthy pregnancy.
I pray you will.
Kathy

tiffany Matto said...

Oh my goodness! I could have written the first part of your post WORD FOR WORD and DATE FOR DATE! My doctor did not give me the D&C option however. She had me take the cytotec to cause my body to miscarry "naturally". I had to do it twice as I still had tissue left (confirmed via US) after taking the medication Wednesday after school. I did a second round on Thursday and it was HORRID! I took 2 Vicodin and had break through pain, make you want to die type pain, for 3 hours while my body passed it all. This is my second miscarriage (first was a D&C and much easier to go thru and recover from) with a healthy 2 year old in between. It never gets easier! Big hugs for your recovery and know that I'm experiencing the same thing at the same time. :(. AND I'll be 40 in April so the clock is ticking for me too.

Rachele Funk said...

Take time to grieve. You've had a major loss and I'm so sorry for your pain. Keep your mind and heart open. God loves you and is mindful of your pain and loss. He will guide you through it and on to what else may be in store. {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Donna said...

I know totally how you feel. I am sorry for your loss and will keep you and your family in my prayers. Sending healing hugs your way!

Denise Bryant said...

I'm so sorry to hear your news. Take some time for yourself and take good care!

Benzi said...

I'm so sorry to hear your sad news. Of course, you know God has a plan for everything. I know it hurts terribly, though. I hope HE gives you peace.

craftysals creative corner said...

Really really sorry Melissa, hugs from England to you are your family xx

Pam said...

Melissa,

So very sorry for your loss and this difficult time of adjustment. Thoughts and prayers are with you and your family!
(((HUGS)))
Pam

Jennifer Scull said...

I can't even pretend to know the range of emotions you are going through, not to mention the physical side of it all. just know that I will hold you and your family tight in my heart, cover you in prayers, and think of you with the most tender thoughts I can possibly find. you are not alone.

Judy Cook said...

Oh Melissa, I'm so very sorry to hear your families news. I know it's hard to experience this and I know you have lots of questions about why, but remember that God does have a plan for you and this must not have been the time for you. Keep your faith and stay close to God and He'll get you through this. You're in my prayers.

Laura Sterckx said...

Melissa, I am so sorry to hear this! You are in my thoughts! Big hugs to you! XOXO

Jo Nevill said...

Oh Melissa, I am so sorry to hear your sad news and my heart goes out to you and your family. My thoughts are with you at this really sad and difficult time for you.

Huge hugs my darlin.

Jo x

Lorraine A said...

keeping you and your family in my thoughts and sending HUGE HUGS xxxx

luv
Lols x x x

Kathy/NorthCarolina said...

Oh, Melissa....my heart just weeps with you. I am so sorry for this loss. You shared your heart in such a beautiful and sensitive way. I pray the Lord wraps His arms around you and holds you close as you grieve and recover. Be very good to yourself. Sending you hugs, dear girl!

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